Just watched the Hall Olympiad opening aka cheerleading competition. Although we didn't get top 3, I think we improved in terms of the speed in doing the stunts and also the diffculty of the stunts =) Well done! You guys deserve a good rest =)

Recently or actually, it has been some time that my emotions were fluctuating. The worst part was that I couldn't control it. Previously, it was due to stress from all the deadlines and academics. Maybe I didn't get a good rest so it dragged on. Or maybe it's just cause of some hopes that couldn't be achieved and that made the heaviness dragged on without me knowing it was the reason. I guess, recently, the fluctuations were the worst. I really, really tried my best to keep it in check. I was aware of how I was thinking and it was very very dangerous. My logic was failing me. It was getting harder and harder to convince myself. The heaviness in the heart affected everything I do. I guess, the stress and expecations I have of myself didn't help either. Luckily, you knocked me awake. Honestly, I really didn't realise that the fluctuations have continued for some time. Thank you. The words you said, made me suddenly very aware of how I was thinking. That then led me to realise the root of the problem which was manifesting recently. I really felt a burden off my shoulder back there and then. I didn't realise the root was affecting me subconsciously. Suddenly, I just felt lots and lots better. I was suddenly more positive. My heart felt a bit tired back then cause I had been causing it misery for so long but the next day, I felt alright already =) Till now, I'm still trying my best to prevent myself from taking the easy way out. Wallowing in my own misery and self-pity is honestly, very much easier but I'm not allowing that to happen again. I promised. Perhaps it was karma for being biased but it isn't gonna happen again. Trust and faith may be difficult but I'll achieve it =) Thank you for not giving up on me and staying beside me =) I am indeed a very very blessed and lucky girl =)

But anyway, although I've solved my emotional problem, I'm tired physically ZzZz... I need sleep. I need to clear my sleep debt honestly, hai... I've also been thinking of staying in hall is worth it or not. I know for my course, year 3 is gonna be hell so... I really don't think I can afford to spend so much time on hall activities but in order to stay, I obviously have to contribute and be active. Hai... Nvm, will see how again.

Shall collect my laundry and sleep. Need sleep ZzZz